First of all, let me just say that watching multiple episodes of The Handmaid’s Tale does nothing positive for the mood.
I make dumb mistakes. Mistakes I will regret for the rest of my life. The biggest one that comes to mind is my last cross country run on Foster. I was having the time of my life, flying (for Foster at least) across the country, when I was pulled up 4 fences from home- I had missed an insignificant fence on the course. The fact that I never got to feel that sense of completion on what was to be his last run makes me sad.
I’m worried that I will make this investment- time, money, emotion, and I will do something classically dumb to mess it all up.
still the best gif ever
I’m very good at that, after all. Remember when I forgot where to go and jumped a BN fence from a standstill? Here’s the video to jog your memory.
I hope I don’t disappoint myself. Disappoint all the people supporting me. The people that plan on watching the live stream. My coach traveling to KY. My dressage coach here in NC. I want to make them proud.
If it comes to laughing or crying, I’ll pick laughing every time. But I am desperately hoping that this will not be that time!
But first, we gotta get there.
Red on the Right 
Jesus Christ woman, you need a drink. LOL
Oh I did. LOL
Keep drinking until you feel better. It’s the only thing that can help you now.
Obviously the pairing of Handmaid’s Tale and AEC anxiety was a bad mix.
iv of alcohol is what you need screw the drinking. Just hook yourself up to bottle of your choice 🙂 HA and breathe. You will be fine!! and that gif. OMG
That gif is proof of why Foster is worth his weight in gold XD
LOL I agree, drink SO much more! And try to get out of your own head (Hi, pot, nice to meet you, I’m kettle :-P)
LOL!
i just spit my coffee out laughing at nice to meet you kettle 🙂 HA HAHA
We’ll all come join you for drinks, help you out a little lol!
Yay! Let’s all partay the anxiety away!
I’m with Amanda. Why isn’t there a glass of red in your right hand??
Go because its an amazing experience to ride at the Horse Park. Go because its a super fun weekend with the most amazing people. Go because you only live once. Don’t go to bring glory back to your (horsey) family.
GO because you may get to meet Emily who will make you laugh 🙂
I might even be the Dressage scribe in her ring 😉
Don’t spook Jack 🙂
LOL but really…. 😉
There’s a 50/50 chance that you will scribe for either myself or one of my teammates- also on a yellow pony!
Yellow ponies for the win
No joke, maybe consider hitting up your family doctor for a beta blocker prescription.. those help my showing anxiety when I start spiraling. And no hangover after!
LOL I’m already living a better life through pharmaceuticals… 😉
Haha just thought I’d mention it!
you guys are gonna be great, and we’ll all be here cheering you on! this is YOUR event, YOUR goal and YOUR fun — nobody is gonna be disappointed in you if things don’t go well, bc we’re all horse people and we all know how things can happen. but everyone WILL be thrilled for you if you come out the other side having had a blast 😉
Thank you- this is the perspective I need to adopt!!!
Deep breath and good luck. I understand how crushing it can feel because you just want to make people proud, but at the end of the day this is always a learning experience so go and learn and do yourself proud.